Every step I take
Reminder of limitations
Lost dreams
New realities
1. I know I have a problem. Standing. Walking. Being.
2. I’ve lost my identity. I’ve become THAT person
Limping. Lacking. Lost.
3. I put faith in the MD PhD RN PA and other alphabets
Holding my future in neoprene hands
4. I know what needs to be done. Fearing that reality.
5. I admit nothing. Your stares are obvious as I labor step after step
6. I have lost control and have no faith I will recover it
7. I am sorry for the days lost. Forgive me my loves for the limited life I have given you
8. Forgive me those I have never met for the hesitancy disability gives me
9. I hurl insults to those who failed me. They land on the air and fall into silence. Karma is a bitch I think. Truly hoping for vengeance instead of forgiveness
10. I see myself too clearly. Angry. Sad. Bitter. Lost.
11. I’ve faithfully felt the surgeon’s scalpel. I’ve faithfully tried to heal. Fifteen rounds and lost the war.
12. I have what I have. Nothing more and certainly less.
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